My Personal Life

LOVE

2012-02-25T19:18:00.002-08:00

LOVE

Saying I Love You is easy,

but putting love into action comes from sincerity within.

Faithfulness will give strength to love …

Showering our loved ones with attention

Loving them whole-heartedly…

Forgiving them when they make mistakes

As nobody’s perfect…

We might possibly hurt the ones that we love

We might also disappoint them

But it’s always good to stay reconcile

Give mercy to one another

Because we’ve got that from the Almighty

Who has never judged us based on our previous faults

But yet love us with His unconditional love

even we do the same mistakes all over again….

Love is not only about myself,

but it’s also about others.

Love is not being demanding,

it’s also about sharing and giving…

Love is not only about the sweet words and romantic sentences

But more to action of love and forgiveness

Love isn’t only about the sweetness of Korean or Hollywood drama…

it’s about how we create the love-story of ours

and make it happy ending…

As we cherish whatever we have at this moment

And feel grateful for His gifts in our life

Suddenly, our life is filled with love

His love will enable us to love others…

And eventually

Let love be the winner through all seasons of life

CINTA

Mengatakan ‘Aku Cinta Padamu’ adalah hal yang mudah,

tetapi menjadikan cinta sebagai suatu tindakan datang dari ketulusan di dalam hati.

Kesetiaan akan memberi kekuatan pada cinta.

Menyirami orang-orang tercinta dengan perhatian,

mencintai mereka dengan sepenuh hati,

memaafkan mereka ketika mereka berbuat salah.

Karena tiada seorang pun yang sempurna.

Kita mungkin melukai orang yang kita kasihi,

kita pun mungkin membuat mereka kecewa.

Tetapi, adalah hal yang baik jika kita terus bisa saling berdamai. Mengampuni satu sama lain.

Karena kita sudah mendapatkannya dari Yang Kuasa.

Yang tak pernah menghakimi kita berdasarkan kesalahan-kesalahan kita sebelumnya.

Tetapi, Dia mencintai kita dengan kasih tanpa syarat-Nya walaupun kita mengulangi kesalahan yang sama. Lagi dan lagi.

Cinta bukan melulu mengenai diriku.

Tetapi juga mengenai orang lain.

Cinta bukan mengenai hal-hal yang menuntut,

tetapi mengenai berbagi dan memberi.

Cinta bukan hanya mengenai kata-kata manis ataupun kalimat romantis, tetapi lebih kepada tindakan mencinta dan mengampuni.

Cinta bukan melulu mengenai drama Korea atau Hollywood yang begitu manisnya.

Tetapi, lebih kepada bagaimana kita menciptakan kisah cinta kita sebagai kisah yang berakhir bahagia.

Saat kita mensyukuri apa yang kita miliki saat ini.

Dan berterima kasih atas semua kado istimewa-Nya dalam hidup kita.

Seketika, kita merasa hidup kita dipenuhi cinta.

Cinta-Nya akan memampukan kita untuk mencintai sesama.

Dan pada akhirnya, biarkan cinta menjadi pemenang di setiap musim kehidupan kita.

Need T. L. C

2012-02-25T08:26:00.002-08:00

I am so missing u terrible Berrrttt.....

My baby Gurls being sick ... I cant stand up . I feel weak. I been sick too. Feel horible.

The one things is missing my man to hold me and his hands then pray ....

Say something '' Mom, No Worry , It will work out :)

I am so blessed when i saw he sitting in bed and prays. I am proud of him.

Now , I missed that moment... :(

Thank for anything , I never REGRET to know about u ...

Do u still remember to call my name if im in heaven ???????

On Marriage

2012-01-15T02:15:00.000-08:00

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.

You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.

Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.

But let there be spaces in your togetherness,

And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another, but make not a bond of love:

Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.

Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.

Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf

Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,

Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.

For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.

And stand together yet not too near together:

For the pillars of the temple stand apart,

And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

Thank u God !!!! :) :)

2011-06-23T03:21:00.000-07:00

Thank God for many blessed in my life ..
More ... More .. More ... More blessed
Withouth u , i have nothing..
Anyway ... I had a great time with my fam after im back and met my youngest sista ...
I know i do love my fam very much..
Im here bcz of u too...
Love u , J.Christ !!!!!

Kamis 22 Feb pukul 5.00 , WIB !!!!!

2011-02-28T01:06:00.000-08:00

Terima kasih Tuhan Yesus , atas penyertaan - MU di dalam kluarga ku walaupun trkadang tdk sesuai dg hrapan yg kami inginkan.
Kamis 24 Feb 2010 jam 5 pagi WIB telah berpulang kembali ke hadapan - Mu Bapa di surga Tante ku terkasih. Lepas sudah sgla pnderitaan dan skit yg slma ini yg di derita nya. Luar biasa Engkau Tuhan. Pd saat ni beliau tlah brtemu dg suami ku trkasih di Surga - MU yang indah. Jika saja dia bisa mngatakan pd kekasih di surga bhwa aku sngat mrindukan dia yg slma ni tlah prgi. Surga yang indah dmna tiada duka dan pndritaan.

Tuhan , ini smua khandak - MU yg tkadang slit kami mngrti dan phami bhwa smua kmbali pd MU. Engkau tau Tuhan ktka kami khilangan seseorang yg kami kshi betapa skit ny hati ni. Ajarkan kami TUHAN utk mnerima smua rcana - MU dan khandak - MU pd kami. Utk kami smua yg dtinggalkan kuatkan kami dan brikan ksabaran dan pnharapan. Kami tidak bisa hidup tanpa MU , Tuhan !!!!!!!!

How To Have A Great Marriage

2011-02-14T17:49:00.000-08:00

One day, a young husband came up to me and said, “Bo, I wish my marriage will be as great as yours ten years from now…”

I only had one word for him: “Don’t wish. Decide.”

In that one line, I gave my secret to success.

That’s what separates great marriages and not-so-great marriages.

That’s what separates successful people from unsuccessful people.

Unsuccessful people wish, want, hope, desire for their dreams.

That’s not enough.

Successful people decide to make their dreams happen. Period.

That means they’ll do whatever it takes.

Nothing will stop them.

Failure is not an option.

Let me ask you: Will you do whatever it takes?

For me as a husband, it means the following:

o I practice “mental” monogamy

o I overlook her faults

o I go out of my way to express my love

o I prioritize our dates

o I lead my family to God

Note: Just in case you’re in the delusion that I’m a perfect husband, let me make this record straight. I’m far from it. Just ask my wife!

But the important thing is that I’ve decided to become a great husband. And I make that decision everyday. (I struggle towards this dream everyday!)

I repeat: Don’t wish. Decide!

May your dreams come true ...

Aku merindukan dan mengasihi kalian semua

2010-12-22T00:44:00.000-08:00

Aku merindukan dan mengasihi semua keluarga ku yang jauh daripada ku.
Setiap Natal yang akan kulalui terasa membuat ku sedih dan sesak , tnpa terasa tetes air mata ku menetes , Rasanya tak ingin ku lalui Natal yang indah tanpa anak2 ku, ortu ku dan klg ku yg kukasihi. Ini adalah natal ke 3x yg akan ku lalui tnpa dia yg ku kasihi. Sayang, mungkin hnya kt maaf yg kluar dr mulut ku di natal ini " aku merindukan mu " !!!!!!

Ini adalah Natal pertama yg kulalui tnpa anak2 ku terkasih. Rasa sedih dan sesak menghimpit hati ku. Aku begitu mrindukan mereka anak2 ku trkasih , memeluk mereka dan mlihat senyum nya di hari Natal ni sayang. Maafkan aku sayang jika aku tdk bs bersama mereka saat ni. Andai sj kau tdk prgi , maka Natal ni lbh indah spt kau msh di sini brsma ku. Smua trsa beda sjak kprgian mu. Ini lah yg mbuat ku sedih, rsa nya jnglah ada Natal yg mngingatkan semua kenangan indah brsama.

Lagu yg indah tentang suamiku yang telah pergi meninggalkan ku masih tersimpan di hatiku. Sayaaaaaaaaaaaaang ...... Aku merindukan mu..
I hate christmas .... Pappy !!!!
It will be 3 times in christmas u was not here with me ...
Should i hate christmas since u gone ??????????????????????????
Jesus ....... Please forgive me .... Please forgive me ......
Its really true no dream ...... Wake up !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What Award Do You Want To Receive?

2010-12-21T01:15:00.000-08:00

Recently, the Dad of a close friend passed away.

He was 82 years old.

My friend was telling me that his father worked as a Sales Manager until he was 81 years old. He kept driving his car to work, visiting the stores, checking inventory, and working non-stop. He worked in the same company for 60 years!

Because of his dedication to his work, he was financially successful. My friend said that he always had money to give to his children. Even when they didn’t need the money anymore, it was his joy to give them financial gifts.

But behind all this success, my friend said that his father died with a deep regret.

Because some years ago, his wife passed away.

And for the longest time, she was inviting him to travel. To take vacations. To enjoy trips together.

But always, the husband said, “I’m working. Go with the kids.” So she would travel with the kids, but never with her husband.

That vacation never happened. She died without enjoying that vacation with her husband.

And her husband continued to work every single day. Until his company (finally) told him to retire at the age of 81.

When he retired at age 81, he now could take a vacation.

But his wife was gone.

With nothing much else to do, he died one year later.

I said to my friend, “Through his life, your father is teaching us a lesson. It’s a powerful lesson. A beautiful lesson.”

He nodded his head and sighed. He said, “Even when we were adults, my father would give us money. That was his way of expressing his love. Thinking that was what we needed. But what we really needed was his time. His presence. But He couldn’t understand that.”

This man was very successful in his job. His bosses respected him so much. He was probably the “employee of the year” for sixty years straight.

But which Award is more important?

“Best Employee” or “Best Husband”?

“Best Worker” or “Best Wife”?

“Best Manager” or “Best Mom”?

“Best Salesman” or “Best Dad”?

You decide.

I told my friend, “I believe that the most important lessons we give, we teach from our grave. And from his grave, your father is teaching you how to live life in a different way.”

15 ways to keep relationship working

2010-12-18T01:28:00.000-08:00

‎ 15 ways to keep relationship working:

1. Love each other
2. Don't LIE
3. Keep Communication Open
4. Stay Sweet
5. When you got hurt just stay forgive and forget
6. Never talk about break ups
7. Never say it's okay; even if it's not...
8. Forget about 'PRIDE'
9. If you say 'Sorry', mean it... !!!!
10. Don't compare your past to your present
11. Don't talk about your stupid EX's ... !!!!
12. Give and take process
13. BE AWARE OF HIS/HER FEELINGS.
14. When you had a fight ,don't let the day pass without being fine!
15. DON'T BE THE PERFECT ONE, BE THE RIGHT ONE...

H+ 3 Let see .......

2010-12-01T03:04:00.000-08:00

Nowdays feel not good... Huffffftt.. last nite i had a bad dream, like my nightmare.
Anyway still 30th . Yeah still 3 not 4 yet ... LoL :) :)
It will 31th coming soon H+ 3
Missing my beloved. It will 3 times a go On my Birthday he was not here. Still remember the last time my birthday with him. The first in the midnight his txt me by cell phone even he sleep next to me. I am up and read he txt by cell then he up says '' Happy Birthday Mom, I Love U " !!!
What's a beautiful life ?

Its softly , and he whisper in my ears, hugh me tighly... God , i feel my world is rock...!!
Also i am being sick in the hospital but he taking care of me. And he asking something to hang out to dinner. It was funny and make me happy. He is asked a nurse to take a bit time want dinner out with me. And she said how is going ?
But the most immportant things he was making suprised and he plans and set up the time to make it happend and make me happy. Fantastic !!!!!
Poor , it will be the last time he make it happend in to my life,Finally !!!
I never know that would be the last time for me and him on my birthday.
If i still have a chance to ... *&%#*
The last cake and candle's ,, In my wishes i was hoping '' God , thanks for beautiful life u gave for me, Blessing my hubby in the work and he a way, Blessing he life and my fam, Blessing Our love , Too many wishes in my prayers..
And when i open my eyes, I seeing beautiful about my life beside him.
It will never be the same after he gone. Sometimes i missing this moment.
I thought none can make it happen for me. But since he gone , my dad do it for me. He hugh me and kiss my forehead. I was cried when he did it. I feel comfortly when i am crying in he arms. I missing u Dad. I just dont understand why i am sensitive also after he was passed away i sad more easier.

The Last Birthday
The Last Candle's and Cake
The Last some a cool present
The Last Wishes
The Last a bunch of flower

The Last time it but it will unforgetable....

It will be my first time on my Birthday at ( NZ ).
We will see how is going ...
Hoping i have a great one ,,,,

Daddy , Missing U much , I Love U

2010-11-29T20:46:00.000-08:00

Dearest : My Beloved Dad

Hope everything is well with u. Sometimes i feel sad when none understand how is going in to my life. I wont u worry about me. I need ur hugh . Feeling so happy when u hugh me and sitting close next to u. I thought i am big gurl now. But i still feel like a little child and spoiled gurl. Thank God for ur love. I am so luckiest gurl to found u into my life. Both of u makes me more happyness. But sometimes i am soooooo sensitive when i cant handle a problem is happend. U raised me very very well. Do u know dad ? I will praying for u for good health and long life always. And the most immportant things make u happy. Thank Dad for careing for my gurls so. Mom and Dad is my inspiration into my life. How proud i am ?
Watching the both of u love each other till geting older. That makes me missing some one now.
I am stronger bcoz of both of u. I dont want be late to do my best before i am breathless.
Almost 3 years a go, i am lossing some one We are in love with. I remember u hugh me so close and give ur arm and we both cried. None else understand how is sad ?
But U ,.... Only U gave me support to be stronger and fight with the sadness.
I Love U , Dad
Thanks for ur Love. But i am still like ur little child and spoiled gurl. Hoping i find some one understand about my self like u are. Loving man, with patience and threat well
And now i missing u playing a guitar when i want going to bed.

With Love n Hugh

Ur Little gurl '' Ina "

Ir .Berto Silaen ST. M.T

2010-11-28T18:28:00.000-08:00

UI ( University of Indonesia ) - Tesis S2

No. Panggil :	T 16916
Judul :	Analisis pengaruh tinggi nosel dan rasio udara-bahan bakar (AFR) terhadap panjang api pada burner tipe jet mixing combuster
Pengarang :	Ir. Berto Silaen
Pembimbing :
Penerbitan :	FT-UI
Program studi :	Teknik Mesin
Tahun :	2006
Subjek :	Mechanical engineering; Combustion engineering; Heat engineering
Kata kunci :	Burner; length nozzle; flame length; nozzle; baffle plate; jet mixing combustor
Pemilik :	Perpustakaan UI
Catatan :
Lokasi :	/ Lantai 4 Gd. B Ir . Berto Silaen ST , M.T ( Master Of Engineering )

Dilemma !!!!!!!

2010-11-10T19:18:00.000-08:00

I dont know what to do ...
I dont know how to say ...
I dont know how to start what would i say ....
Make me a bit stress
Speechless !!!
It was hurting me With she hardest words ...
What a mistake i has ?
Why U take it out on me ?
Do what u want to do if that make u happy , even i didnt happy when u bring this shitt run it out on my life ,,,, What a deal ???

Sadness !!!

2010-11-01T22:38:00.000-07:00

Dont know what to say Now , Dont know where to start ....
I dont know to Handle there's something on my mind ...
You tell me u are leaving , But I have just to say Before u Throw it all the way...
Even if u want to go alone , I will be waitting when u are coming home
If U need someone to ease the pain , You can lean on me ,,,
My Love will still remaind
Or U can find to lean from the other ....
Dont know what u are Thinking to me It seems Quite Though to hold a Converstation
When Words Are Not Enough ...
So this is Your Decisions And There's Nothing I can Do ...
Do what u want to do ...
Lord ,,, I am so tired with arguing and fight . Tears away and that hurting my self.. I am not perfect but i trying to understand if that a good decisions i will take It... Thanks for everything u do it for me ...

Heaven .... Heaven ... Heaven ... !!!!!!!!!

2010-10-30T01:43:00.000-07:00

I hate my self when my tears away and i cant do something to make it better....
My tears away when i heard this song " Sekali ini saja " by Glen Fredly.
Jesus ,,,,
I am losing my life is back now !!!!!!!!
Do u hear me ????
Heaven oh Heaven !!!!!
Missed my a good life come back .... Why u didnt say anything there ?
Do u see my life its gonna be hardly now ?
Since u gonne ,,,,, Since u gonne ,,, Since u gonne everything is change!!!!!!
Hoping everything is gonna be ok with ur Mom too. I do love her very much as like as my mother. Bcoz she is a mother and i do respectful for as i am a mother too. Since u gone we are missed about u. Please no tears away, i am F***ing Hate seeing my tears away when u come in the dark of the night (my dreams)... Pleaseeeeeeeeeee!!!!
My promise is :
1. i will make your angels be happy
2. i will raised them with my love

No one understand what my feel but there's something in my head.
Life is suck after u gone ..... ( WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME ?? )

F*** for everybody to talking shit about my life !!!
I dont care what the hell u are talking about me ... !!!!

Aaaaaaaarrrrrrrgggggghhhhhh...... !!!!!!

2010-10-28T01:36:00.000-07:00

Ga enak badan, prsaan pnas dngin kyk nya mau PMS nie..
Kangen sma anak2 ku, Mom, Ayah dan yg tkasih di Surga yg Indah.
Surga tempat yang indah, dimana kekasih ku telah berada disana.
Dan aku merindukan dia yang kukasihi. Teramat sedih ktika dia hadir dlm mimpi2 ku. Sayang, setiap aku mngingat mu air mata itu menetes utk mu. Sedih yg tdk bs trtahan. Dan krinduan itu smkin mbwt ku mngingat tntang mu.
Sejak kau tinggalkan aku dan anak2 mu, rsa nya sedih hati ku ktika anak2 mu mngatakan rindu akan engkau. Knp smua ini hrs brkhir. Dan ktika aku rsakan ksnndri'an ini hncur hti ini mngingat engkau. Aaaaaaaarrrrrrggghhhhh ....!!!
Spt tak adil hdup ini utk ku. Smua tntang dri mu mngingatkan ku pd putri kcil ku Karen. Aku bhagia ktika kau titipkan 2 anak yg kau kasihi. Mereka adalah pengobat rasa luka dan sedih ku.
Tahukah kau ?
Ketika si bungsu mu trtawa , mengingatkan ku tentang diri mu.
Aku brharap mreka anak2 yg brprestasi seperti dirimu. Dan kini aku menangis ketika aku mengingat mereka dan mengenang engkau yang telah meninggalkan kami....
Tuhan, mengapa semua ini masih ku tangisi ?
Mengapa semua ini masih membekas di hati ku ?
Saat ini ku katakan pada mu ya Tuhan,....
Aku merindukan dia yang terkasih !!!!!
Surga , adakah dia melihat diri ku dalam sedih ketika aku merasakan bahwa rindu masih miliknya ????
Gadis kecil ku tersenyum dan kurasakan bahwa kebahagiaan itu.
Ada tetes airmata yang mengalir ketika kusadari bahwa Ayah nya telah tiada. Dan dia harus kehilangan moment bersama Ayah nya. Dimana kurasakan dia merindukan sosok Ayah dlm hdup nya.
Tuhan... Tuhan ... Tuhan...
Tuhan... Tuhan ... Tuhan... Ijinkan anak2 ku mndapatkan kebahagiaan yang menjadi milik mereka...

Lord, My Sepherd
If i have 101 years i will give my best , My soul, My Love, The whole of my life for U..

Jesus Blessing the whole of My Family ...

Terima Kasih Tuhan Atas Penyertaan - MU

2010-10-09T01:20:00.001-07:00

Terima kasih Tuhan atas kasih dan penyertaan MU ,..
Jika sampai hari ini aku masih bisa berdiri tegak semua karena kasih MU
Aku berharap penuh di dalam tangan MU lindungi seluruh anggota keluarga ku.
Berikan mereka semua kesehatan yang baik dan kekuatan.
Terima Kasih Tuhan..
Ampuni atas dosa dosa yang kuperbuat, bimbinglah aku mnjadi manusia yang lebih baik
Dan ketika aku lemah hiburlah aku
Ketika aku tak berdaya kuat kan aku
Ketika aku sedih hiburlah aku
Ketika aku tak bersemangat berikan aku semangat
Ketika aku merasa sendiri datang lah Engkau Tuhan dan bisikkan di telinga ku bahwa kau selalu di sisi ku
Ketika aku sakit lawatlah aku..
Tuhan ..... aku butuh Engkau disepanjang hidupku..
Berikan aku semangat Tuhan....

Happy Birthday My Princess '' Caren ''

2010-10-02T15:03:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Sweet heart " Caren "
U always be in my heart babby...
Wish I am there to kiss and hugh u thighly.. With all my heart I wanted to saying Happy Birthday My babby , ...
Makes the world and earth proud about U , U will be my stars.
No, No, No , No one to hurt u babby.. I will kept u like an angel..
I am so sorry if am not there in ur birthday...
Wish i could hugh u babby..
Now i missing ur Hero ,,,, I knew i cant take it out when He came into my dreams.. He will be proud of u Babby.. Ur smile make my world , Ur face make my day !!
U are my everything..
Thank Jesus u gaves me Beautiful girl's and they are make me the meaning into their life..
Once againts Thank Jesus for my family of they are support, Cares, And loves for My Little Gurls. Exactly for My wonder Mom to sitting my babby when i am being apart with them...
Happy Birthday Babby.. Happy Birthday Caren...Happy Birthday My Princess ... Wish U all the best..
May Jesus blessed ur Life Forever ... AMIEN

With all My Love PS. I LOVE U

Ur Mom

If U leave My World

2010-09-19T02:43:00.000-07:00

Bersamamu kulewati lebih dari seribu malam.
Bersamamu yang kumau namun kenyataannya tak sejalan.
Tuhan jika aku masih diberi kesempatan.
Ijin kan aku untuk mencintai nya.
Namun bila waktuku telah habis dengan nya.
Biar cinta ini hidup sekali ini saja.

Tak sanggup bila harus jujur,
Hidup tanpa hembusan nafas nya.

Dedicated For My Beloved Husband
Thanks Pap for ur Love.
Heaven ...................
Heaven .....................
Heaven .......................

When my whole world was gray
U gave me everything
and a little bit more

And when its cold at night
And u sleep by my side
U become the meaning of my life.

DITEPATI SETELAH DIUCAPKAN , ITU JAUH LEBIH BAIK

2010-09-17T18:08:00.000-07:00

Ketika kita berjanji untuk lebih menguasai diri.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat menghadapi berbagai ujian dan pencobaan..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk lebih lembut lagi dalam berkata-kata.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat harus menjawab kata-kata makian yang pedas..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk setia sehidup semati hingga maut memisahkan kita.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat badai rumah tangga dan kejenuhan rutinitas melanda..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk berbuat kebaikan lebih lagi di sepanjang hidup kita.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat keadaan dan orang-orang di sekitar kita semakin jahat..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk bermurah hati dan banyak memberi.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat kita kekurangan namun sekitar kita lebih membutuhkan..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk lebih bersabar.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat menghadapi orang-orang yang begitu menyebalkan..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk memilih kedamaian ketimbang kekuatiran.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat menghadapi berbagai masalah hidup yang kian merisaukan..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk lebih bersukacita.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu saat beban kehidupan dan berbagai penderitaan begitu menekan..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Ketika kita berjanji untuk memiliki kasih lebih lagi kepada sesama.. itu baik,
Ketika kita menepati janji itu kepada mereka yang justru membenci dan memusuhi kita..
itu jauh lebih baik.

Kekuatan sebuah JANJI adalah pada saat janji itu DITEPATI, bukan pada saat diucapkan..
itu jauh lebih baik.

My Lord

2010-09-17T02:10:00.000-07:00

My Lord
I want my beloved understand how my feelings
Really I am so tired and i need my time to forget it.
What supposed i do ?
Sunday Glory, i was thought i missed this stories.
This time for my regret !!
Silence...!!!
Hoping he know what i am thinking,
Should i need to do what i do not like ?
I Want his understand and feel love not the only what he want me to do i do it.
All i need to understand about how my feels...
WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME ???????????

Ten Rules for a Happy and Successful Husband (Sepuluh Kebijakan untuk Suami Sukses dan Bahagia)

2010-09-15T22:14:00.000-07:00

1. Show affection to your wife and be truly faithful to her.
Tunjukkan rasa cinta kepada istrimu dan sungguh-sungguhlah setia kepadanya.

2. Do not nag or abuse her; avoid prolonged arguments.
Jangan mengomel kepadanya atau bersikap kasar dan melukainya, hindarilah adu argumen yang berkepanjangan.

3. Always kiss and make up before retiring.
Ciumlah selalu istrimu dan perbaiki semua yang tidak mengenakkan sebelum pergi tidur.

4. Compliment your wife liberally. It makes her a better cook and a finer companion.
Berikan pujian dengan murah hati kepada istrimu. Hal itu membuatnya menjadi ahli memasak yang lebih baik dan teman yang lebih menyenangkan.

5. Treat your wife occasionally to a dinner or a show or both.
Sesekali manjakanlah istrimu dengan makan malam di luar atau menonton sebuah pertunjukan yang menarik, atau keduanya.

6. Drink and eat moderately.
Minum dan makanlah secukupnya, jangan berlebihan.

7. Plan your budget together.
Rencanakan anggaran belanja keluarga bersama-sama.

8. Admit your mistakes with regret.
Akuilah kesalahan dengan penyesalan.

9. Keep your business problems and troubles where they belong.
Simpanlah masalah-masalah dan kesulitan-kesulitanmu pada tempatnya.

10. Pray together and stay together.
Berdoalah bersama-sama dan tetaplah bersama-sama.

Read the Fine Print in Your Marriage Contract

2010-09-15T22:03:00.000-07:00

Marriage is like two cultures colliding. Since both partners grew up in a family with a particular way of doing things, both are bound to violate invisible expectations they don’t even know are in their spouse’s head.

One particular example stands out from my own marriage. As an only child, I was used to being coddled when I was sick. My slightest wish was my parents’ command. My wife, Susan, grew up in a military family. When she and her brother were ill they sat quietly and didn’t complain too much; that was the way their father, a Colonel, behaved when he was sick. No one was waited on in her family. The most anyone did was sniffle quietly and ask for a Kleenex.

When I married Susan I naturally expected -- although I never said so -- that she would baby me when I got a cold, just as my parents did: she would bring me juice, feel my forehead for signs of fever, and look worried. Of course, she entered our marriage with no such expectation. Although generally a loving person, Susan usually responded to my whimpering with a roll of her eyes and something like, “You can get the juice yourself. For heaven’s sake, quit complaining!‘

“Quit complaining? I can’t believe it!” I’d say. “Don’t you love me? This is my time of need! I would do it for you!”

Such interchanges led to more than a few arguments. After all, my feelings were hurt. She wasn’t living up to my unwritten agreement of what a wife does when her husband is sick.

Marriages are full of such unwritten “agreements,” private agendas about time together, mutual friends, decision-making, how to spend leisure time, managing money, raising children, having sex. And when one partner fails to live up to a clause in the other’s private contract, that other person may feel hurt, taken advantage of, or downright angry.

A friend once told me about his first week of marriage. Like his parents, he seldom sat down for meals. Instead, he would “graze.” He would pick up a drum stick from the refrigerator and wander in to the television set for “dinner,” just like his parents used to do. His wife, who came from a sit-down-together-for-dinner-and-talk culture, started crying. She decided that he must not love her to act the way he did.

Let’s face it, when we marry, there are a million private little contracts just ready for us to break. One may think:

“We’ll spend every evening together.”

“You worry about the children and I’ll worry about the money.”

“I’ll protect you and you make me feel important.”

And if the spouse doesn’t know about or hold the same contract, sparks can fly. The next time you and your spouse have an argument, ask yourselves, “What marital contract did one of us break?”

There’s nothing wrong with having expectations of your spouse or your marriage. That’s natural. It’s just better to make them explicit. Talk about them. While some are worth fighting over, others you can modify or even set aside.

For example, when I get sick these days, my wife and I have compromised. Now Susan will bring me orange juice (like I bring her when she’s sick) as long as I don’t sniffle too loudly or look too pathetic.

Tuhan , Aku merindukan tentang dia yang ku sayang !

2010-09-15T01:36:00.000-07:00

Tuhan.....
Aku merindukan dia yang telah pergi.. Semakin mendekati hari kepergian nya semakin sedih ku rasakan. Ijinkan aku melewati semua ini dengan hati yang tegar dan kuat. Dan bila matahari bersinar aku tau bahwa cinta MU selalu mengiringi langkah ku.
Terima kasih Yesus atas kasih MU.
2 years a go....
Should i hate when u come and should i say STOP dont bring about our nice stories ?
Leave me alone or i will hate my self...
Let u know if i am here to forget all about us But Why u always turn around come into my dreams ?
I hate when i cant talk to my lovely. Even he left me alone when i want to talk whats on my mind then what my feelings !
Seriously i want u know what u thinking about me ?
What the meaning i am into ur life ?
No bodys here exactly just u and me , totally i missing my friends to talk with them when u leave me alone.
Please talk Hun, I need u to threat me well .
I hate fight, i hate arguing !
All i need is ur love and gently. Threat and teach me like ur queen , Like ur said !
Stayed around in home with u,, I want my love come back like the first u knowing me.. Is was bad ?
Kiss me
Hold me
Touch me
Hugh me
Do u feel my heart beating ?
So when i spoiling ur hairs i feels my love for u more and more!
To be honest i do love u very much..
Get ur arms and laid down there,,, Feeling so close like an angel in ur arms,.....
If tomorow comes, Let me feel ur love more than words !!
I
LOVE
U
MEA !!

Rules for a Happy Marriage (Sepuluh Kebajikan untuk Pernikahan Bahagia)

2010-09-11T22:48:00.000-07:00

1. Never both be angry at the same time.
Jangan pernah marah berdua pada waktu yang bersamaan.

2. Never yell at each other unless the house is on fire.
Jangan pernah berteriak kepada satu sama lain kecuali rumah Anda kebakaran.

3. If one of you has to win an argument, let it be your mate.
Jika salah seorang dari kalian harus menjadi pemenang dalam suatu argumen, biarlah pasangan Anda yang menang.

4. If you have to criticize, do it lovingly.
Jika Anda harus memberikan kritik, lakukanlah dengan kasih sayang.

5. Never bring up mistakes of the past.
Jangan pernah membawa-bawa kesalahan masa lalu.

6. Neglect the whole world rather than each other.
Lebih baik mengacuhkan seluruh dunia daripada mengacuhkan satu sama lain.

7. Never go to sleep with an argument unsettled.
Jangan pergi tidur dengan argumen yang belum diselesaikan.

8. At least once every day try to say one kind or complimentary thing to your life’s partner.
Setidaknya satu kali dalam sehari, cobalah untuk mengatakan sebuah kalimat pujian / penghargaan kepada pasangan hidup Anda.

9. When you have done something wrong, be ready to admit it and ask for forgiveness.
Ketika Anda melakukan kesalahan, bersiaplah untuk mengakui kesalahan Anda dan minta maaf.

10. It takes two to make a quarrel, and the one in the wrong is the one who does the most talking.
Membutuhkan dua pihak untuk bertengkar, dan pihak yang salah biasanya adalah pihak yang berbicara paling banyak

Pappy I Missing u so bad

2010-09-11T07:04:00.000-07:00

Pap, Do u know how many tears i have ?
Its never can changes anything without u were is sadness. I want u wipe my tears away. When nite comes i missing u sleep next to me. I was thinking that would be nice with ur love. U know hun, it was sad when some one being rude for me, I knew u never ever do it for me.
U always be my loving man and husband. Thats why i am so luckiest woman when u be with me. U make my day even we have arguing and fight , u never being rude and u can make me happy beside u and turn on with u always.
When sun shine coming i get u in my side and kiss my forehead then says Morning sayang,I Love u ! that makes me more happyness.

U always take my hands when we go around ,
U always kiss my forehead before u left me and after u get back,
U always hugh me so,
U always needed to help u to take shower then cleaning ur body
U always ask me anything what would we do to the next,
Now i am quite without u felt empty..
U know Pap, I trying to forget , doesnt matter i hate u.

But i want u to know u always be in my heart
Do u see my tears away ?
I am not see bad , All about u is good hun.
Finally i knew now.. If raining come i want sleep in ur arms, say againt Our future begining..
But now thats all just in my dream. Heaven is nice a place for u.
If u see me cry please hold me, hugh me, kiss me although it just was in my dream.

SURAT KEMATIAN

2010-09-07T16:38:00.000-07:00

Kekasihku,

akankah engkau menandatangani surat kematianku,

dengan beranjaknya engkau dari sisiku?

Tiap detik yang berlalu,

membawa dentuman sang waktu,

gemanya seolah meregang nyawaku...

Pada siapa kelak,

akan kuceritakan tentang senja,

dan tentang burung-burung gereja

yang berarak pulang ke tingkap-tingkap atap rumah.

Atau tentang kupu dan bunga-bunga,

dengan semarak warna dan harumnya,

setiap kubuka jendela kala pagi tiba?

Rengkuhan tanganmu,

belai lembutmu,

tatap matamu,

merekalah yang meredakan resah,

haruskah aku kehilangan itu pula?

Dan jika datang petir menggelegar,

serta deru derai badai menerjang,

kala amarah di sekitarku menyerbu,

kekasihku, adakah kau tempatku mengadu?

Sungguh, kekasih...dirimu tidak tergantikan!

Kekasihku,

katakanlah segera...

kemana akan kubawa setengah jiwa yang tersisa,

bila belahannya kau bawa pergi

untuk berlabuh di dermaga seberang...

Ah kekasihku,

jika detik itu tiba,

akankah jadi kau tanda tangani surat kematianku,

ataukah kau bakar dan berkata,

"Mari kekasih, hidupku adalah bersamamu,

hingga kematian memisahkan kita"

Dedicated For My Lovely Husband '' B " , I do missing u so much Pap' ......

Thank GOD

2010-09-01T14:58:00.002-07:00

The First Thank God '' JC "
Thanks for
1. My Daddy and Wonder Mom....

2. My Little Angels " Kezya Und Karen ".

3. My Sista Tya Und Egy

4. My Lovely Bro " Andy " Und Obeth...

5. My Dearly in the Heaven.. Thanks for watching me and gaves me ur smile althought it was
in my dream ..

6. All my Dear Friends , Thank u,, Thank u ,, Thank U

Finally i am here now ... I will missing u ALL...

At New Zealand ,,, I was here and If u missing me , please free to contact me..

PS. Scooty , Thanks for ur care ,, God bless u ..AMIEN

With Love

Happy Birthday Dad.. Love u

2010-07-22T03:42:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to My Beloved Dad . Hope u Have Long Life, Good Healthy, be wise Dad and husband , and good life.
We always love u.. Wish all the best ..
Jesus blessing u always and forever... Amien..

I Love u

2010-06-22T09:19:00.000-07:00

Lord I'm tired of going through all this when the problem came and went I felt a very deep fatigue. There is no one who understands what felt. All I want him to understand what I felt. I just beg your understanding. Should I get back lost loved ones?
I've buried all my past. And I let him in my life. I want to start with the hope of millions if there is a love that is true then we can love each other and understand each other too..
Do you understand that I really liked you? Do you understand your self how much it meant for me? Do you understand how hurt I am when you bring into the relationship between the past which we live today? Do you understand that I just want you and me in our relationship? Do u understand how hurt my heart when you take someone in your past when I felt that this love belongs only to you and me? Do you understand when I try to be patient just to survive because of my love in your heart? Do you understand that all I want is you? And when I cry you can wipe my tears away.
God if he wants me I'm sure my beloved man are able of making the right decision. And if he loved me he would prioritize this relationship to survive and choosing me as his spouse/wife.
Thank God for all the problems that occur when all that is happening more and more strengthened. Thank you for your love is always with me throughout my life.
God, I hope that what you have brought together not separated by humans except by death. And I still remember clearly the promise of marriage. I do not understand what the meaning of a divorce when the couple divorced just because I see the sense of being selfish and just because a small problem.
Where is the promise faithfully that when we begin a relationship and the marriage must end with the word divorce? God I was so scared all. When I say a promise and swear that I would NEVER deny that I'm so afraid Of God.
The plan is to plan of God's beatiful's plan in my life that the peace includes you bless my life, my family and children are loved.
God gave us love so that we can always love each other. And give us love one another so that we can appreciate the love that will not fade even if the problem occurs in our relationship so we can reinforce each other because love..
Good morning Father in heaven, I want to close my eyes and met with loved ones even if only in my dreams and I hope my dream will come true tomorrow or the next. I love Jesus

Hottie Sexy Mom !!

2010-06-16T04:21:00.002-07:00

Me With My Little Gurls ( Kezya and Karenz )

2010-06-15T09:06:00.000-07:00

We missed U ,,, Pappy !

2010-06-15T08:26:00.000-07:00

God, I'm very tired and helpless at the moment. I beg Thy power over my life. Without your participation is what I'm not okay. When I am weak, strengthen me, When I was experiencing shortness give me relief. So when I feel that no one else is understood about the feelings that I felt came Father. Where there is a power that always soothe my soul when I feel empty.

And when I feel I've missed him all that had gone from my life. Forgive me Lord when I miss the dead back into my life. I feel no one can replace him in my heart, He is the best husband and father for me and the kids. Do I have to cry when I miss it? God why must he do you take from our lives when we feel happy with him? And I miss everything about him. I was delighted when he was present even if only in dreams. Pappy, there you miss me when I feel lonely without you? Hold me in love, and wiped my eyes like last time when you're with me. This sense of emptiness and sadness into my heart space, and I worry when I find myself without him.

I miss when he called me darling .. I miss when he stroked my hairs, I miss when she wiped my tears with love, I miss when he kissed me gently, I miss when he held my hand tightly, I miss when I could with spoiled him, I miss everything about the beautiful .. And this makes I feel tortured when I get there nobody understand except besides him, who had eight years with me .. Only he who can understand what I think and want ... Forgive me Lord!

I felt calm when he wiped the tears from my eyes and took me into his arms, is beautiful in there I feel happy with the person who always loved me sincerely without limits.Thank God for the love that has been created for all of us here. I am very happy although I feel the time is too short and too sad to be remembered for all the wonderful about,,
Jesus loving U , Pappy.. And we missed u too.. Rest in Peace ..

Meeeeeeeeee

2010-02-26T23:16:00.000-08:00

Miss U Sweet heart....

2010-02-09T00:45:00.000-08:00

Tuhan Jesus, Jika saja aku dpt sayap , maka aku akan terbang melintasi langit biru. I really missing alot, my sweet heart. I will be there for u Beb. Tak dpt ku lukiskan sgala nya yg terjadi dlm hati ku ini. Tuhan Jesus , aku berusaha melakukan yg terbaik utk smua nya. Aku pcaya rncana indah mu yg tjadi dlm hidup ku dan keluarga ku.

Aku begitu merindukan anak2 yg ku kasihi beserta smua keluarga ku yang jauh dr aku. Tuhan , seandai nya smua nya bjalan bgtu indah spt yg kuingin kan maka aku aku akan mengatakan bahwa aku merindukan seseorang juga yg tlah pergi dr khidupan ku, Aku sadar dia tak pnh kembali ke dlm kdupan ku. Tp aku bharap dia hdr dlm hdup ku. Aku begitu merindukan dia datang dlm mimpi2 indah ku dlm malam2 yg kulalui tnpa nya trsa menyiksa ku. Tuhan mengapa dia hrs cpt berlalu dlm kehdupan ku.. Dan ketika dia pergi aku baru mnyadari dia adalah yg terbaik dlm hdup ku dan anak2 yg kukasihi. Aku sadari smua mimpi ku adalah milik nya. Dan aku pcya bhwa cinta nya utk aku di bawa oleh nya bgtu jauh.Smua tak akan pnh kmbali.

Selamat malam sayang u.... aku ingin kau hdr dlm mimpi2 indah ku. Berikan aku senyum indah mu, hingga aku dpt merskan aku ta pnh sndiri.
Biarkan aku mersakan kasih mu slalu hdr dlm hdp ku,, mskipun kau tlalu jauh bg ku...Trma kasih atas kasih indah mu.. Terima kasih atas smua yang indah yg pnh tjadi dan pnh ada diantara kita... Aku slalu mengingat mu sbg kenangan yg trndah dlm hidup ku.

Thanks GOD

2010-02-07T19:40:00.000-08:00

The first thanks lots to JESUS CHRIST my saviour. Thanks to my Wonder mom and dad. Thanks to my Sweet Little gurls Kezya Und Karen. Thanks to my sista Egy Und Tyara, And the My Bro Andy so My dearly Friend Emil , Dirna, Bm, Syiska, and Ocie. Thanks for ur support, cares and spirit into my life. God bless U all...
I already in New Zealand / Wanaka at 6 on Feb 2010.
I am gonna missing my Sweet Heart >> Karen. I love u...

Merry Christmas

2009-12-26T01:35:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas For all dear my friends...
Gone to curch with my Parents, Sista, Bro, Little Girls, and my familys so. Hope u had a good Christmas...
Thanks God (*&&^%^%$(&$#@!@$(* )

Happy Birth Day ..... 30th Years !!!

2009-12-04T03:18:00.001-08:00

Happy Birth Day .... 30th years now !!!

1. Thanks alot for my JESUS CHRIST .. Thanks GOD
i am still alive. Hope i have a good life,
Long life, health,hope be better woman,mom.
Please take my whole Life !!
2. Thanks alot for My Daddy and Mom.. especially
for my Wonder Mom... Thanks for ur love and
cares.. I love U all.
3. Thanks for my angels, Kezya Und Karenz. I luv
U ... Thanks for Ur prayers , spirit, loves,
support and all u do its make me happy. U are
my soul and my breath. Wish u all the best
gurlz... I love u all.. !!!
4. Thanks too my sista and hubby..Tya and Frank
U ARE THE BEST !!!
thanks for ur cares, support, and love !!
I love u all !!
5. Thanks to my cutie sista " Ogy " AND Obeth.
thanks for ur attention..hahahha... U are
best sista !!
WISH U ALL THE BEST TOO.. I LOVE U ALL !!
6. Thanks for my Bro " ANDY " , U are the best
bro !! Thanks for ur cares , love, support
and ur brave heart !!!
7. Thanks for my close friends..
A.Emilia, I know u are the best gurl !!
B.Dirna , where are u " beb ?? We missing u !
C.Ocie and familys,, many thanks for ur care..
D.Syiska, " Beb.. I know u had Bf... But dont
forget life must go on..hahhahaha..R u
already forget me "Beb ?
E.MANY FRIENDS..... OMG ..how can i write it
were here??
But thanks for u all !! I LOVE U !!

May GOD Blessing u all... AMIEN !!!

So sorry been busy

2009-11-10T19:24:00.000-08:00

Hi Dearly friends.. Hope u are well. I just been busy here. How can i handle all were here alone. My cousin just visit here, then need starting new life by here. OoOOPPppzzz....

No matter what, dont worry i am still alive,, Just a bit stressed to thinking all.. ( What u things ''Beb ? )
I really missing My dearly Friend " Emilia" Its was long we didnt meet .. Do u know how much i missed u Gurl ?
Dirna... Where are u Gurl ? R u gonna marry with BM soon ?
I hope u well. Let the time answer and dont worry God have a good plan for u and him. My Crazy Sista " TYA " , Hope u are well. Hey come on Beb , let our heart beaiting, did i am silly now , when i want to starting new by here ?
I will tried to positive things, hope everything it will better than yesterday.

To be brave is to love someone unconditionally, without expecting anything in return. To just give. That takes courage, because we don't want to fall on our faces or leave ourselves open to hurt

Thanks for my wonder mom, bcoz of u i am here. Thanks lot for ur support and cares. U ARE A WONDER MOM...

All about me...

2009-09-05T21:53:00.001-07:00

I really missing u friends...

2009-07-29T18:20:00.000-07:00

Thanks 4 My Jesus Christ. I really appreciate with my life. I surrender of my life 4 JC. Let me happy and have a good life 2. Anyway, My parents will going to airport today. They need to pick up my cousin. She back from Germany today.Wish all we doing well. Thanks God u are the best into my life. May God blessing My parents trip today. Have a great day to all my dear friend.

Happy Easter day...

2009-04-13T02:57:00.000-07:00

My Sister In Bali ( Tya Und Frank Tegeler )

2009-03-26T00:27:00.000-07:00

Would i want do now ?

2009-03-12T23:38:00.000-07:00

Thanks alots to JC bcz his still gave me breathness. Hr ni ga bgtu padat aktivitas. By the way adik ku Lg prgi ke Bandung. Garing banget di rumah. Bawaan nya BT banget. MmM... Masih ingat kekasih hati ku yang tlh pergi jauh.. Dan tak aka

Publish Post

n kmbli.

Sunday with my Family in Anyer '' Bandulu'' Beach...

2009-03-01T04:40:00.000-08:00

My Sister 'Tya" And Frank Tegeler Comes to Indy

2009-02-23T16:03:00.000-08:00

My Sister "Tya" And Frank Tegeler Coming to Indy at 6pm my time. Its was suprised when they comes. Really i missing them. I called and talk with my sister in saturday but she dont talk wanna comes to Indy. She say didnt comes . But when i got my home and was take shower i see Her husband saying Hello...hello..hello... !!! I think its not real but i see his comes...Thanks GOD...I meet with her. Last time i meet with her in 2006. I called my Daddy to back to our home. We go to sleep in 2am here. Got party and talking all nite long.. Once againt i wanna say..Thanks God i found her...God blessing Our family... By the way i miss my man. How u have been ?? ...

Birth Day Patricia ( Rika Daughter) In Mc Donald RM

2009-02-16T17:35:00.000-08:00

Birth Day Patricia (Rika Daughter) In MC DONALD RM CLG.

All about my familys... Cutie Sista and My sweet Angels..

2009-01-27T00:48:00.000-08:00

Monday very buzy....

2009-01-19T20:46:00.000-08:00

I dont like monday...hahahaha....Bcz i must starting to work againts..Hey...Do u like monday ?? I go to MR home..I have check out my home..Need to chances my home to be good ...My parents law called me..They want me come back to RIAU...Oh My God.. What i can do there..I thought i dont have a good idea to living there...I ask to my daughter ...She answer dont want go to there..Bcz she had alots friend in here ...Hahahaha...she want school in here...Near from she grand Mom and grand Pa...so what i can do too?? I just want see have good a place and happy...Any way she need caring and protect from my family..
My father going to Lampung...I missing him....Misssssssssssinggggg alots....His talked with Mom yesterday and say want to back at tuesday...Wow..nice...I miss u alots..Dadddddddd !!!!! Evening meet with my sister and hang out until 10pm ...Go to my friend home...She had a problem...I just want to see all my friends happy..I buying a stuff to my angels..Wow..they like that..Tried to call my Love at 11pm but seems like he buzy ...I WILL STOP IN HERE ..and say Have a great monday....JC Blessing u all...

Thanks all my day...When i fill down and up ..HIS still gave me power

2009-01-16T19:48:00.000-08:00

Thanks to my Christ....this time i try to raise up...But when i am alone i feel sad...Sometimes i told to Lord...Why hast thou forsaken me?? i never know about his plan..i am surender all of my life .. nobodys know about my heart..i try to cheers up and smile...Thanks to all friend and family too........

Happy Sunday

2009-01-11T20:43:00.000-08:00

Happy Sunday ...Yesterday i was hanging out with my Friend..Meet with them..Count down to my Campus Of University..I saw theres nothing chances..Its was sad..I know theres only building but i have alot story were...Dont know why i am still remember all of about he being sick in there..
Dont be sad...But when i am see there's place make me sad...Wanna run go out from there...Go around to Lippo Mall and meet with ALL OVER my friend...Thats make me a bit happy...Hey...Whats up Gurlz?? They want see me smile...Thanks for ur care gurlz...Have plan meet with Emilia...Want to comes to my home..I am waitting u ...By the way..My Brother ''Obeth''..Wanna go back To Jogjakarta tommorow..
My FATHER go to Lampung..Bcoz He have work there..I am praying God blessing u ,Dadd...Love U....Was chat with my sister ''MoT''..Wow..I MISSING U Gurlz...Tommorow my First Daughter Birth day...i have to make party to her..Wanna see She smile..
i tried to call my Lovely yesterday but seems like His Buzy in L.A..
Hahaha..My Bussines man just buzy all over..Take care Ur Self Hun..I miss u alot..Love U,Tek God bless U

I missing U Pappy " Ber "

2009-01-08T22:15:00.001-08:00

OMG ...
OMG ...
OMG ...

I MISSING U HORRIBLE HUBBY , IT MAKES ME SAD WHEN I COUNTING DAY BY DAY A GO WITHOUTH U ... JESUS FORGIVE ME !!!!

I KNOW LIFE MUST GOON , BUT I WAS DREAM ABOUT U LAST NITE ...
I HATE WHEN I WAS TALKING TO U , U JUST HUGH ME.
THEN U WIPE MY TEARS AWAY ... OMG - OMG - OMG !!!

I MISSING MY HAPPY LIFE BACK WITH U , HUB :(
HOW CAN I DO WITHOUT U ?

I REMEMBER WHEN U TOLD ME LIKE THAT , MAKE ME CRIED ..
NOW , I KNOW I FEEL THAT ... OMG !!!

BER -- WOULD U STILL REMEMBER MY NAME IF I COULD BE IN HEAVEN ?
OMG ----- IM REALLY SAD ... U ARE THE BEST HUBBY IN THE WORLD EVER ..
MY DREAM IS WITH U FOREVER , BUT WE NEVER KNOW ABOUT FUTURE ..
ITS LIKE MY WORLD END UP WITHOUT U DEAR :(

I NEVER REGRET TO BE WITH U EVEN JUST FOR A WHILE .. :(
ALWAYS LOVE ME DARLIN' - EVEN U IN HEAVEN RIGHT NOW ..
THANK FOR EVERYTHING U MAKE IT ...

U ARE THE BEST HUBBY, DAD , MAN AND PATNER IN THE WORLD..

I MISSING U HORRIBLE '' BER '' :( :(

Full of Life...All about sweet Ina...ORANGE COLOUR ..In Ochie Garden

2009-01-05T18:35:00.001-08:00

I Miss u '' BER '' my lovely..Where r u at now????
Really thats make me sad when i didnt see u were here..MY LIFE full Of tears..Would I never have see u again ???
I was dream about u last nite..Its make me hurt when i am awake didnt see u next to me...its my worst when i know his so far and maybe Already forget me ....
i missssssssssssss U alot.....
Love u, mwah...

Dear God in the hell.....Bcz Heaven so far from my life..

2009-01-04T21:35:00.000-08:00

Dearest..My Jesus Christ

Please forgive me..All i am things its so sad and hard..I cant see who can help my life..Exactly U ar not the one too...Nobodys know about my fill..I am praying but i am hopeless all about i am doing..Life so hard..Please i want see they smile..They dont know about of my life..I am just want see they smile..i couldnot share for their..Its my part life..If i am die Please keep up their life..Please forgive me..I have being sick today..Dont know to thing and make sure to the future..Father ..father,...father..Why u hast thou forsaken me??

Me..Mba Inem..Brother Shandy ..Angel..Mas Fendi in hospital..

2009-01-02T03:09:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year 2007

2009-01-01T18:23:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year 2009...At nite i am praying to all my friend and family..I want say..Thanks for Jesus Christ ,My Parents, Sisters, N Brother, so My Angels...
Please forgive about of my fault and hope be good to the future...May God blessing our Family...Thanks to My Dear Husband in the Heaven..U ar Good husband into my life.. U ar the meaning into my life...Did u see me cried in here ???
I know life so hard after u go and left me alone...Papa why u so fast go out from my life ??
All long nite i am feel sad...When i dont have friend to share all of my life and get a problem..I saw ur pic and thats only make me cried .Dont know why...But really thats make me down...I know u never back againt although every day i am cried..I am hear ur sounds ....Love u Ina...At 2008 we have alot stories...I am being sick and u stay keep up to me..Still remember at 3 June i am DJ STENT and u gave me suport..U ar half of my breathness...When i am affraid to do that..U never left me alone and down...Papa...Why u go??
I am happy when i see ur smile and say love u sayang....Ber'' i am still remember when talking and ask about why if u die??
U told that before u go...Why u told that??
and then u ask ..Ina , do u love me?
U ASK that more and more...Why??
I dont have a idea when u died..Its sad and i lost all....What can i do now??
Please see our kids...Did u know Karenz missing u ...When She cried only call ur name and thats make me sad...She ask about u..When Papa back from the heaven???
GOD...how can i do??
And be hard when i saw our first kids take ur pic ,,,Its meant she miss u lot...
''Ber, U ar good father and husband ..Thanks of ur care and love..I am happy to find u in my life..
Before u being sick...U call me and say... Please praying to me,,Mom...
Every day i am praying to u..Jesus blessing ur work and ur life..I am very scared when i know u sick and i fill down...I never see u have been sick...And when i am saw with my eyes i am cried and every day i am praying and surender to Our Lord ..Wish u have good and long life..Right now i never see ur smile and all of u...U just come to my dream sometimes...Thanks of ur love ''Ber''...Thanks alot
Hope have long life to My Parents...Thanks Dadd of ur love and ur support when He sick till died,,Thanks Mom of ur care and love too...U ar good Mom..U ar my shine sun and please praying to me..Thanks to Tya...U ar best sister...Thanks Egy N Obeth ..Hope u be a good and nice couple..Together and forever...Thanks to My Bro ''Andy'' ...Thanks to My Angel ''Kezya N Karenz''..I want see they smile and have good life..Thanks to ALL friend...Ika,Ochie,Mba Inem,Emilia,Kabrut,Ida,BM,Ka Hana, Lisner,etc ...Oopps...I HAVE LOTS friend and how i can call one by one were here...hahaha
Thanks To My Lovely ''Tek'' ...U ar the special man...Hope all u talking its true ...Love U...God Blessing U ..

New Year With Ika..Ochie..Yasmine..Nizya..Yadi..In RM Cilegon

2009-01-01T16:27:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T00:56:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year To all friends...AND thanks alot to My Jesus Christ... Hope my dream come true....

Hello ...Ina with My Friends....Sweet..

2008-12-31T03:37:00.000-08:00

The End of this Year

2008-12-31T03:18:00.001-08:00

I don't want you to have to wonder where I am ..
I am still look like terrible .. Alot tears and My Eyes looks like no joy.. Just Trying to take a shoot bcz my friend to make me cheers up, Thank for my beautiful friends and fam - I LOVE YOU ALL ..

Publish Post

Me ...Sister ..Bro ...And all were here...

2008-12-26T04:00:00.000-08:00

This time i am meet with all... My sister Enganged with Obet ''jAwIr''...Hahaha This beautiful moment..God bless ur love Gurlz...I hope u be happy in ur life..CONGRATULATION !!!!
Hey..i am notsee '' Tya''...Hey Gurlz when u back??
I miss u ''Mot''....hehehe...
There is ''mE '' iNa sweet gurlz ..My dear Mom & DaDD..My AnGeLs..Obet JaWir '' cUtE''..aNd HiS pAreNt..So all were..oPsssss....I AM nOt sure To CaLl aLL of ThE one ...

Merry Christmas 25 / 12/ 2008

2008-12-24T16:32:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas 25/12/2008 To all friends and familys...

Many Thanks to Ur all

2008-12-23T18:43:00.001-08:00

The First Time Many Thanks To JESUS CHRIST my Saviour...I am still breathness, alive, and smile were here..
Thanks for My Parent of they support, spirit, and love so care to my life..
Thanks to My Sister ''Tya'' U ar my sweet sister and i know u have good heart and still support into my life.. U ar the best Gurlz..
Thanks to My Sister ''Egy'' U ar My sweet sister and i know u ar best too..When i am FEEL down and up u still gave me support and caring to my life..I fill down in past life when i got a problem and lost His was go and never back to our Family..

I know i cant cheers up without u gurlz...When i am suffered they never leave me alone..Thanks i found best sisters were here..
And thanks to My Brother '' Andy''..
U ar best Brother to me....Thanks of ur love....U gave me half ur life to me..I am still remmber u gave me half ur blood into my life...I got recipient Of ur blood that from u at Jan before i am go to DJ STENT OPERATION...Thanks Bro....I know i have nice family....Thats why i am be proud to had and found u all....

And Thanks to My Friends ..Special to ''Emil'' And ''Kabrut''..U ar the best Frriend...I am be pleasure to be as ur Friend...Thanks of ur love and caring to my life..I know u ar the best...Thanks gurlz...

Thanks To My Sweet Angels ''Kezya Angelyne'' And ''Karenz Esther Agnesya''...U ar the sweet gurlz.. I am happy when i saw they smile...U ar the meaning into my life..They are my supporter into my life..When i am down and up were here i am try to give smile and everything...I dont want loose they smile and i try do it everything for them...I love u gurlz..
God blessing ur life and i know HIS never let u down..I am still praying to My Angels..And wish have good life all day...AMIEN

Thanks to My Lovely ''BER '' .. For ur care and time were here..I love u...I miss u alot..God bless u all ..

Many thank all ...

Happy Sunday

2008-12-21T20:58:00.001-08:00

Thanks For JC .....Happy Sunday..God bless Us

18 SEPTEMBER - HE PASSED AWAY

2008-12-20T18:15:00.002-08:00

Hari ni Kezya ''My FIRST DAUGHTER'' bagi raport. Ktmu tmn2 di MY..Lumayan anak ku perkembangan bljar nya..Tp kata gurunya Kezya kadand nangis di kelas..Aduh kasihan anak ku yang 1 ni agak sedikit cengeng..Sejak Ayah nya ga da..Dia agak sedikit sensitive dan perasa..Aku kadang sedih liat anak ku yg 1 ni..Kadang2 dia juga bertanya mengenai ayah nya yg telah pergi..Mudah2 an dia lambat laun tau dan mengerti bahwa Ayah nya pergi dan tak akan kmbali..Tuhan berkati lah anak2 ku dalam setiap langkah dan pegang erat dlm kuat Nya Kuasa MU..Amien

This time at 19th He died..

2008-12-19T18:17:00.000-08:00

JC ''today '' this time i am remmber he died..I am sad when i know time so fast a way..PLEASE give ''he'' good place in heaven..Thanks JC of his love for me althought just for a bit while time..I am be proud as his wife..Bcz His love me until do the as part..He taken our love forever..Until he loost he breatness he just say '' I Love U''.
I am sad when i know he died in my arms..God...........I DONT WANT TO GET IT AGAINT FROM MY LOVELY AND ALL I AM KNOW..Its terribly...Father..Father..Father..listen me...I am sad..I am cryed...When i know and remember the last story..I just know he very love and care to my life..I think nobodys want like him into my life..I hope he rest in peace on the heaven...AMIEN

My sister ''Tya Und Frank'' Go to Casablanca..Italia..And around a way..Nice Trip with Star Cruise

2008-12-19T17:24:00.000-08:00

Tya and Frank go to Italy..Roma..Casablanca..Mexico..AND have nice trip...i miss u alots..When u come ''Mot''??

Wow...I am waitting u soon..hahaha..Jangan lupa bawa pesanan aku ya..These pic of my cute sister..She a bit naughty but she good..I missing u...JC blessing u

The First Time In Christmast Without Pappy

2008-12-18T18:00:00.000-08:00

Christmast With My Daughter at B'Laguna

2008-12-18T17:16:00.000-08:00

Hari ini natal di Laguna bareng My Angel..Ini adalah Natal pertama aku lalui dg anak2 yg terkasih tanpa ''Dia'' yg kami cintai..Terlalu sedih ketika lagu lagu yg dinyanyikan menyayat hati ku..Tuhan ijinkan aku melalui hari2 ini dg semngat dan beri kekuatan bagi kami..Aku menangis rasanya tak siap menghadapi natal ini tnp ''Dia'' yg terkasih..Terlalu sedi untuk ku ingat semua perjalanan hidup ku..Kami terlalu mencintai ''nya''..Tak bisa lepas dari bayang2 ''nya''..
Tuhan ini adalah ujian yg terberat dan kami harus melawan rasa ketakutan kami dalam hidup ini..Rasa sakit ini seperti menyiksa hati ku..Ingin ku katakan pd MU Tuhan ku..Aku kecewa dan terluka sekali atas kepergian ''nya''..Ini ga adil dan ga bs mengobati kcwa ku thp semua..

Missing my buddy

2008-12-17T17:41:00.001-08:00

I missing my best Friend ''Emilia''.. Where ar u friend??
We got same problem..But i know u ar best friend..I want count down if i am there..I missing ''Kabrut''..Where ar u girl?
I wish we would have be good to the future..Hey where r u Bro ''BM'' i miss u my candidat political person....hahaha U just gave more reason if i asking when u will marry with Her'' ??
Wish have good life and day to u and all friend...
Many thanks to my friends...I know i am proud to found them into my life..GB Us

WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME

2008-12-17T16:55:00.001-08:00

This not my day..I am not feel good..Its time to be happy..But i thought its not my time..Chrismast coming soon..JC my God...Why time so fast go over..Im really sad and hurts..When i know i am alone in here on Christmas..I will be alonely..Without him..He was die and this time i am alone..JC this not good plan well..I am cryed everynite..Nobodys know what my fill..

Im see my Angel sleep last nite..Thats make me sad when i know they dont have father..Its sad and hurts..They just as my little kids dont know what happen to do it..Many reasons i gave them when they asking about they father..They asking me..Mommy ...why Ayah so fast go??
Why Ayah die?
Why Ayah GO TO HEAVEN?
Why Ayah not take he clothes to go??
Why he never call me againts?
And many questtion they gave me...

JC i just want see they have good life and see they smiley..I dont want they cry and sad too and i dont want to loose my family and my lovely againts..
Wishes my christmast be good..On here i just want to say thanks to Jesus Christ in the heaven..His hold my hand when i am up and down..When i am sad..cryed..hurts..Thanks Ur love..
JC ....i cant life without u...Hold me ...i am surrender just with U..Blessing our family...AMIEN

Good Morning

2008-12-16T17:14:00.000-08:00

Pagi yg indah tp tidak seindah hati ku..Ketika aku melalui waktu ini dg kesendirian yg tak terobati oleh waktu yg berlalu..Aku sadari dia telah pergi tp semua tentang dia masih tersimpan di hati dan pikiran ku..Tuhan harus kah kulalui hari ku dg kesedihan..Aku merasa kan dirinya masih ada..
Tak layak hati ku untuk memulai yg indah meski berat tp aku berusaha tegar..Aku masih ingin melalui hari ku dg kebahagiaan..Ketika kulihat senyum dari ke 2 My Angel..They have nice smile..Thats make me happy when i am see their laugh and life so beutiful..They my inspitation ..My support..My all everything..Merka tak pernah salah dan aku akan berusaha membahagiakan malaikat kecil ku..Akan kulakukan yg terbaik untuk mereka..
Setiap malam aku menagis dan memandang wajah malaikat kecil ku..Rasa nya sakit dan perih hati ku..Ku tau ini tak akan membalikkan Ayah nya yg telah tiada..Berat nya hati ku ketika aku pandangi ke 2 ''titipan'' nya..Seakan berkata Jagalah ke 2 malaikat kecil kita..Tuhan,,,aku ingin teriak dalam sesak nya hati ku..Mereka tidak menyadari hati ku begitu sedih mengingat Ayah nya yg telah tiada..Ijin kan aku Tuhan memberikan yg terbaik untuk ke 2 malaikat kecil ku..Karena merka adalah sebagian dari nafas & kehidupan serta hari indah ku..
Wish U blessing my family...Jesus Christ Please hold our hands and dont leave alone..AMIEN

Not really well :(

2008-12-15T17:42:00.000-08:00

Black Or White..U have any choice were here

2008-12-15T17:07:00.000-08:00

Why hast thou forsaken me ??

2008-12-12T18:01:00.000-08:00

Lord..Jesus..I am very scared..and i feel sad..when i know he was go and never back..I thought its not good plan into my life..Every day i am praying for my family..i will do anything for my family..And see they have happy with me..
I am sad when i am awake ..i am not see he next me.
Did u think life is so beautiful without him...His my inspiration..my support..My everything...Would u taking he on heaven??
Like a summer and sunshine..I am go to sleep and hear he say,,,i love u..This not my time to explaint with u about my fill.U are right..Nobodys know about to the future..But here i hope my life to be better...Thanks God...i found my love in here

2008-12-12T17:56:00.000-08:00

Tuhan..masih adakah rasa bahagia ini milik aku. Smua yang indah telah berlalu..Ingin kulukis rasa hati yg sedih ini...Apakah rasa ini akan selamnya spt ini??
Ijinkan aku untuk dapat kuat dan tegar mengahapi semua yg terjadi dalam hidup ku ini...
Ketika dia pergi ..aku tau tak pernah akan kembali..Dan terlalu berat kuhadapi hidup ini tanpa diri nya...Karena aku tau..Aku sangat mengasihi nya...

Dia...tetap berada di hati ku...

2008-10-12T21:39:00.001-07:00

Jngan pergi dari ku ...tinggalkan ku sendiri...
Jangan pergi dari hidup ku SAYANG..
Dlm lelap malam aku menagis..Dlm pekatnya malm aku teriak pa TUHAN....

Mengapa harus dia yang tkasih pergi???
Mengapa terlalu cepat dia berlalu dr khdupan ku??
Mengapa harus dia yang ku sayang ???

Indah nya rencana Mu...tp apakah ini arti indah nya bagi ku??
Aku teriak pada TUHAN...Aku menangis pada TUHAN...
TUHAN dimana kah ENGKAU????
TUHAN RASANYA GA ADIL....

Aku menangis dlm sepi yg tak berujung.....Why hast thou forsaken me????

Kesedihan yang mendalam

2008-10-12T21:33:00.000-07:00

Ketika aku buka mata ku tnyata ini bukan mimpi..Aku trjaga dalam pimpi ku...Dia tlah pergi meninggalkan aku dlm ksendirian..Inikah rncana yang indah??? Dia tak pnh kmbali...Dia tlah menghadap Baba di surga pada tgl 19 September 2008 tpatnya hari Jumat pada pukul 21.15 Wib.....
Ga da pesan tp mnyakitkan...Krn aku bgitu mengasihinya.....Krn aku bgtu mnyayanginya....Inilah hidup.Ktika waktu tak dpt diputar kmabli ..Ktika itu aku menagis saat Dia yang ku kasihi pergi....

3 June Operasi DJ STENT

2008-06-04T19:45:00.001-07:00

Tgl 3 june gw buka selang dari perut..Iiiiih serem ya????
Namanya "DJ STENT". But i feel worried banget saat itu coz bius lokal. Untung nya gw dtemenin sama "B" sayang ku..Kalo gw sendiri pasti gw ga sanggup coy...

Thanx 4 " b " yg pnuh kasih mberikan cinta, smangat, kasih, dan waktu nya yg tersita untuk ku..U ar my lovely...Its good love honey. Operasinya memakan wktu 10 menit..Tp takutnya luar biasa. Liat alat nya aja buat gw ingin lari. Apa lgi bius lokal dg sadar bisa gw liat di kamera semunya kliatan..

Kalo bisa gw lari saat itu krn saking takutnya. Untungnya Dokter nya bae and kasih semangat. Td nya gw pingin dtemenin " B ".Tp oleh dokter ga boleh.. YA udah so gito dehhh.
Thanx the first time to Jesus Christ..Thanx to "B". And so many people..GBU

i love yaaa , Berrrrrr :)) - u are my world ...

Adik ku terkasih "Tya" sakit ...

2008-06-04T19:35:00.000-07:00

Haiiiii..pa kabar nie pagi ini..Aih..gw BT bngt deh so have big problem..Btw adek ku trcinta "Tya" yg di Germany lagi sakit..Aih thats to bad but i can't go to there..Mom plan in the 21 june must go on. Ksihan bnget udah jauh dari klg sakit pula. Tp gw hrap dia makin kuat and semangat krn dia dikelilingi oleh orang2 yg mngasihi nya.
Mnurut gw sah2 aja mommy ke Germany..Tp 3 bln lumayan lama yaaaaa...
Not with My Father .. Just alone ..Hik..hik..hik
Pada hal dr bulan Juli - November 2007 lalu Mommy and Daddy go on..
Ini juga dlm rangka surprise dari suaminya agar adik ku lbh semangat.
Habisnya dia sendirian di negeri orang..jadi agak sedikit mellow gitoooo..
Jadi cuma nyokap aja yg brangkat..Kshan jg sendirian..GBU

Happy birthday for "B" chayank koe...

2008-05-26T18:47:00.000-07:00

Happy Birth day bwt "B" yg trkasih.Semoga panjang umur dan makin dwasa serta sabar yaaaa..Ehm yg kbrapa sayang??? Udah tua ya??
Blum tua seh tapiiii udah lumayan lama ya in the world..hahaha so to good too be true yaaaaa..Aihhh +bjaksana juga yaaa.
Skali lageeee "Slamat ULTAH" ya sayang..I love u

Selamat Pagi dunia...

2008-05-23T18:44:00.000-07:00

Pagi....semua...Seneng bngt pagi ini bs mnghirup udara segar..Thanx God yg masih bisa berikan aku nafas dan bs melakukan aktivitas...Kalo dipikir pikir knp ya jarang manusia mngucap syukur atas berkat yang Tuhan telah sediakan bagi kita semua..Semoga kita dapat lbh bnyak mengucap syukur atas anugrah dan berkat TUHAN selalu sediakan bwt kita...Have a nice day