H+ 3 Let see .......

Nowdays feel not good... Huffffftt.. last nite i had a bad dream, like my nightmare.
Anyway still 30th . Yeah still 3 not 4 yet ... LoL :) :)
It will 31th coming soon H+ 3
Missing my beloved. It will 3 times a go On my Birthday he was not here. Still remember the last time my birthday with him. The first in the midnight his txt me by cell phone even he sleep next to me. I am up and read he txt by cell then he up says '' Happy Birthday Mom, I Love U " !!!
What's a beautiful life ?

Its softly , and he whisper in my ears, hugh me tighly... God , i feel my world is rock...!!
Also i am being sick in the hospital but he taking care of me. And he asking something to hang out to dinner. It was funny and make me happy. He is asked a nurse to take a bit time want dinner out with me. And she said how is going ?
But the most immportant things he was making suprised and he plans and set up the time to make it happend and make me happy. Fantastic !!!!!
Poor , it will be the last time he make it happend in to my life,Finally !!!
I never know that would be the last time for me and him on my birthday.
If i still have a chance to ... *&%#*
The last cake and candle's ,, In my wishes i was hoping '' God , thanks for beautiful life u gave for me, Blessing my hubby in the work and he a way, Blessing he life and my fam, Blessing Our love , Too many wishes in my prayers..
And when i open my eyes, I seeing beautiful about my life beside him.
It will never be the same after he gone. Sometimes i missing this moment.
I thought none can make it happen for me. But since he gone , my dad do it for me. He hugh me and kiss my forehead. I was cried when he did it. I feel comfortly when i am crying in he arms. I missing u Dad. I just dont understand why i am sensitive also after he was passed away i sad more easier.

The Last Birthday
The Last Candle's and Cake
The Last some a cool present
The Last Wishes
The Last a bunch of flower

The Last time it but it will unforgetable....

It will be my first time on my Birthday at ( NZ ).
We will see how is going ...
Hoping i have a great one ,,,,